14.05.10

Everything stop making sense. And the sadness is so painful.

I'm alone here.





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My mind, my heart, my soul, my everything is telling me to push you away.
I will hurt you anyway. But it's faster like this.











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I remember you. That's the thing.


You are already in the past.





















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16.05.10


This night, three days after our death, I still feel you inside of me. I think that probably I will feel this way till the end of my life.

Now, three days after our death, I am you and you are me, cause we are everything, every thing that exist in this world. All at the same time, in the same space.

And it's not the pain of doesn't have you anymore, it's the feeling of haven't really had you ever. To recognize it. To understand it. To make it a part of me.


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God. You hurt in here like all of the children crying along in the world. That's what you are inside of me.

Thousand of children crying inside of me.




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What you are for me. My childhood's innocence falling apart to never come back again. Never come back again.







Never come back again.